I'm soooo loking forward to spring break. Of course i still have a lot of stuff to do with school, but i'm going to put it aside for a day when i'm up for it. i've been overly stressed for quite a while and haven't realized the affect it's having on me. i really need to chill out and let a few days go by to give myself a rest. I so want to hang out with my bf and go on more dates! a picnic is sounding really good. I'm also aiming at beating Twilight Princess. I'm sort of cheating with a walkthrough, but i'm so clueless when it comes to strategy games...strategy doesn't come into play. i'm just like "i can't think of anything else but the obvious!! whyyy?!" though i do have some moments where i get in the zone and figure it out without the guide. it's only when i'm very stuck. but now that nearing the end of the game i want to be prepared for the worst so i won't be back on for about two weeks or a little more. hope you guys are doing well and i'll be looking forward to coming back on <3

man things are insane. I'm almost done with my senior project as in the portfolio part. Then all i have to do is present it and get out of here!! X3

so i went over to my bf's house and we watched movies, but we haven't hung out since v-day. we've both been very busy. so when i finally had the chance to see him i didn't want to leave! i'm also trying to get to know his family better and they invited me to spend the night. they offered to make arrangements for me to sleep in his room with his sister and he could sleep in the living room. well i called my mom and of course she flipped out. she said things like "it's not a good idea" "It's inapropriate" "when you're eighteen you can sleep over, but not if you're livi9ng under this roof". She was acting like we were going to do stuff...THAT stuff. and i was so mad. first of all it's at his house with his family and we weren't even going to sleep in the same room. and we're mature people who have discussed that none of that is going to happen just yet (though it's really hard ). the only reason i considered it was because it felt like we didn't have enough time and it had been a while. so my question is do you guys think that my mom was right?

okay...so my home compy got a virus!! it only affected one of my profiles...so hopefully it'll be a trooper for me. But, i had to delete my profile.......and lost ALL of my pictures. ALL OF THEM! soo...they can obviously be replaceable. i was going to scrapbook with them TT TT but that's okay. the pics on DA and on my myspace are the only source where i could get the few of them back. I'm not going to use my compy at home anymore. I have tried to ninja for a looong time without any real problems. well now it really is. so i won't be uploading anything for a while...again another delay. Well, it doesn't discourage me. i can always upload from school...which has kept DA unblocked. hopefully that will last, cuz i'll be taking a lot more new pics in the upcoming months. Wish me luck!

from within the depths of my heart...there was a hole...
a hole that was too deep and too painful to touch.
the months i spent...drifting away from him...only to find this new person i'm with..
was what created that hole...
it just happened...out of no where...
in the recent months...as i have grown to love and become so close to this person...
the hole has gone away.
slowly...and painfully...
but my life is full of happiness...and it eases those feelings.
i wonder why things turned out the way they did...
i hope that it turned out for the best...
love...broke me down.
love...saved me.
what should i think of love...when it's very complicated?

the year has begun...
i wish i had more time...to live my childhood all over again...
the way i'd like to as i think of it now.
i wanted to grow up so fast...and certainly have.

love...wasn't the same then.
love...is so much better now.
i'm ready for committment...
i'm ready to be comitted to.
my heart has taken it slow...every feeling..growing over time.
my head...is wrapped up in the busy days...
but when he crosses my mind...the world stops.
all i know is his arms...and his eyes...
for once...i am truly content.
there's nothing in him...that is flawed.
his hand is always warm when he takes my frozen one.
his smile is sweet and i'm always happy to see it.
his eyes hold a deep sorrow...when we part.
but when we are next together...they glow like fire.
it's easy to talk to him...about everything.
sometimes it's hard...because neither of us can find the words...or just the courage.
i used to think of the first dates with him...as wasting my time away.
I had so much to do...so much to worry about...and so did he.
but we spent those days together...wandering around the mall, watching movies, walking along the beach and eating loads of sweets.
now...those days could have been put off...and we could have been more productive with our time..
but those were the best days yet.

so here we are...five months later...with valentines day coming up...
it feels like yesterday that we were drawing each other anime and passing notes in math class.
our lives are forming around each other now.
he's never too far from the phone...and he's always waiting for the minute he sees me next.
i'm the same way...
and i wouldn't want anything any other way than it is with him now.

So, I've been trying to post some new stuff...it's coming along..pretty slow and all...but it's getting there. i've been putting up pics of my wonderful bf! omg i lurv him so much! i'll be putting more pics up that are not just of me and him X3 i'm getting photos up...i haven't dedicated a lot of time o drawing cuz i haven't had much time otherwise. I'm so in love right now...my mind is always on him, but don't worry i haven't forgotten my buddies on DA XD so i will try my best!